Obssession
Have you ever been obssessed with something? Like you think about it all the time. I’m like that right now. I know that I need it, at least some of it. And that too much of it is bad for me. And I have a little bit of it, just enough to get me through for now; but it won’t last forever. And when its gone, I’m not sure how or when I’ll get more. And so, because I have a little bit of it, and because I think about it all the time, I’m not sure whether I need more of it right now or not. And it gets more complicated– because I feel guilty about having any of it at all. Have you ever been like that? I try not to worry about this thing, I try to have faith that I’ll get enough of it when I need it, but its like wandering around waiting for manna from heaven, never quite sure if it’ll show up again the next morning or whether to eat more right now.
I am so neurotic. So yeah. I’m just sending this out into the void.
